I don’t like to write negative things. I tend to be very positive. However, I have to walk my talk here and be honest.
You disappoint me.
I’ve had some of you write me basically asking for a reading free of charge. Question: How does that honor me and this work?
Also, my mom passed away in June this year, not even three months ago. Another question: Why are you so impatient with me in getting back to you with emails? Chill out.
I’m also disappointed when you ask for patience and understanding and folks do not provide it to me as a business owner or a human being. I send out my email newsletter monthly to stay in touch. At times, there are links and helpful things, but lately, I’ve been a bit tired due to grief and other life stuff. I politely asked in a recent email newsletter if you wouldn’t mark my email as junk. Well, one of you thought it was rather cute to mark it as junk. Question: Did you enjoy that? I sure hope it was worth it.
To be honest, I don’t have a ton of bandwidth any more to write here on this blog. I don’t turn down clients, however.
The thing is, it’s not my job to be your endless source of inspiration on this blog or on social media. I will write or share when I feel like it. I keep this blog and website mostly up for a source of information, to be of service.
One last question: What are you doing lately to be of service?
Punk Rock Psychic
(photo by Kol Tregaskes, Flickr, Creative Commons License)
I have been on a quest this summer. It might sound really obsessive, or even quite funny. But, I’ll tell you anyway: I am here to get rid of all weeds! (Well, at least, the ones on my property!)
I don’t like to use chemicals on my lawns, plants, or flowers. We make natural concoctions or potions for our plants. Since we feed the birds and squirrels (and rabbits too!), we don’t want to put all of that yucky pesticide stuff in places where wildlife might feed. So, we don’t even use weed killer.
I’m a bit ambitious with my weed pulling efforts. I admit that I even pull the weeds out of the grass by hand. I’m really not into that whole suburban lawn or yard obsession. I just want things to look neat. I don’t want the weeds to choke out my pretty flowers, trees, grass, or plants.
This summer has been particularly hot. Some of our grass has died. No, we don’t feel like wasting tons of water to have a green lawn. It’s been interesting in the dead patches to see the weeds still grow. My god, weeds can grow any place! I’ve noticed that they even survive the winter in my flower beds (say, if I missed a couple before the snow flew).
It’s been interesting to watch the weeds poke their way up in the dead grass. Some of the weeds have pretty flowers. It begs the question–are they weeds or flowers? How do you determine this?
I have been thinking a lot lately about weeding through my mind. There are some thoughts that are so persistent and repetitive. They pop up when I least expect it. “Oh, no, you again?,” I’ll lament.
I always am amazed at how old programming will make its way to my consciousness from the depths of my subconscious mind. It might not seem like a big deal, but did you know that your subconscious mind runs the entire show? It runs your life. It doesn’t know the difference between the positive or negative. It just accepts whatever you give it. So, all of that old crap people told you growing up is in there. All of your limiting beliefs are there that you inherited just by being a human being on planet Earth. Yuck! It is all worse than the weeds in your yard!
So, what do you do? Like some people use chemicals on their yards to get rid of weeds, some people use chemicals to alter their minds, including both legal and illegal substances. Some people do affirmations or work on being positive. Some people go into counseling or do tons of self-healing work. I think you have to find what works for you and well, do it, religiously (not that I advocate religion of any kind! Ha ha ha!).
Pull the weeds out of your mind. Replace them with the “flowers” such as loving thoughts and compassion for yourself and others. Work on your belief in yourself each day. Forgive the past (which is not the same as saying what people did to you was okay). Forgive yourself. Treat yourself with tender loving care. Give back by being of service to others on the planet–even in a small way.
In modern times, it is quite easy to just medicate yourself. It can be done through anti-depressants, alcohol, drugs of every kind, food, watching television, surfing the internet, shopping to acquire more material goods, caffeine, sugar, and so on and on. Addiction is a way to cover up difficult emotions and feelings. It happens it seems when the weeds grow so much because we haven’t removed them from our minds. The weeds take over. It’s not pretty. All of those lovely flowers and plants get suffocated. Addiction will hide the real you. No one will get to benefit or enjoy you. It’s not the way to live.
I like to be careful about the new things I plant in my mind. As I pull out the weeds, I let myself express my emotions and feelings. I will journal about them or talk to someone. I’ll do something creative. I watch the words I speak. I’ll watch my thoughts about myself and others. I don’t watch negative things on television. I don’t participate in the popular media or mainstream consumer culture. I have to say that after doing these things for many years, I am happier. I’m more content. I’m okay with being me, the real Lisa.
Of course, some weeds do have pretty flowers. But, you know what? They are still weeds. Appearances can be deceiving.
As the summer comes to a close, I’ll be getting my garden and yard ready for the colder weather. Some plants do better in cooler weather. Some go dormant. It’s all part of the life cycle. I’ll still be pulling weeds–until the snow flies. The job never ends when it comes to my mind though. It’s an ongoing project.
What weeds do you need to pull from your mind? How are you going to shift into something more positive? What are you going to do?
©2010 by Lisa, the Punk Rock Psychic™, punkrockpsychic.com